Friday from Hell!

Well my weekend started off TERRIBLE!  I mean, I was like well DAMN! 

 First off, I just don’t get Bert.  He is sooo hot and cold.  One week it’s like he is all over me , the next week I don’t even know where he is.  I mean it’s like he says he is going through a lot but I am like WTF???  I am sooo tired of playing this game with these little ass boys.  I needa man..a grown man.  It wouldn’t be so hard if I didn’t like him and I didn’t see potential in him..in us..in what we could be.  Anyway, that’s neither here nor there.  I just know that if we ever talk again I just have to be straight up and ask him …WTF do you want from me and tell him straight up what I want and expect and just let him know if he can’t do that then we will both be better off.  I just don’t get it.  I mean when we are together or talking it is soo good, he is so sweet, and attentive and I see the good in him when he stares in my eyes and then ..nothing.  This is really hard and I refuse to reach out again and that is hard for me because I want to sooo bad but how much am I supposed to put myself out there before I am the fool?  I can’t do it, that’s not me.  I’ll just have to get over this, get over him.

Then on top of that , my boss calls me in for a three month evaluation and he had this whole list of expectations he felt I wasn’t meeting.  I am like WTF???  I work my a$$ off.  I don’t even know what lunch is.  I listened amnd I didn’t respond because I was hurt and surprised and if I said anything I would have probably started crying.  I am in Management now, so that might have freaked him out.  He was basically like I need to step it up, take more control , and get more involved.  I mean some points were good, others wer like, when do you expect me to do that?  I am very busy and I thought I caught on very fast but whatever.  A lot of my hurt feelings were because I have never heard negetive things from an employer just praise  but I think NOW I see because my previous jobs I was overqualified for and now I am in a Management position.  So, I was bummed out about that.

Then, on Friday my sister and I were supposed to go do an impromtu dinner and her friend called her and she ditched me at the last minute so I ended up going home with no dinner and just got in the bed and hoped it was something on to make me cry the tears that had my name on them from all of the days events and disappointments. I cried a little. I don’t know if it helped or not.  Whatever.  Not to mention, hoping Bert would call not that I would have answered the phone but at least I would have known he was thinking about me and that last week was not a part of my imagination!

The rest of the weekend was cool, went to Sorority meeting, went to a party with my girls, had a Sorority Anniversary dinner, went to church. Steve called me Saturday night ( late as f*ck) I immediately gave him the cold shoulder and hung up in his face.  He called all night long into the next morning.  Every hour on the hour.  It was crazy.  I didn’t even feel like being bothered.  He was probably like, What is wrong with her?  That was it.  Listened to some people tell me how cute I am and when am I going to have some cute kids and tell me they KNOW I have a man and who is he..Blah Blah.. I need a man!

Thanks for reading!