Freakishly Boring

Hello:

I hope everyone had a GREAT Easter! I was super busy Easter weekend so on actual Easter day after I went to church and had a great meal I went to sleep for like 6 hours straight! Got up and ate again and then watched Desperate Housewives and went back to sleep again! Good times!

My life is still freakishly boring. I been hanging with some friends and family but as far as love..NADA! Steve called yesterday and I was being nice. He asked me how I was doing and how everything going and how was my Easter and then he asked me how was my love life. I told him that it was okay. He then told me he was still single and I asked what was he waiting on..He said he was waiting on me, then he asked coukd he wait on me. I responded Yeah..Then he asked was I going to leave the man I was with and how long he had to wait. I told him I had to call him bak..I didn’t.

I called to check on Eddie. Probably not the best move but my mom told me I should call him because he usually at least comes to church on Easter and he didn’t. I called and he was happy to hear from me of course and he told me he still loved me and that I would always be his baby. I didn’t respond I just went into my spill asking him why didn’t he come to church and he was basically like he didn’t want to. But he sounded really happy and he said things were going really good and he missed me and he told me he still wants us to be in close contact and he asked me would everyone trip if he still came by and we went out to “dinner” or something. I know what that leads to! I listened and he told me he loved me again and he would call me later. He called back later and left a message I called him back and he asked me what I was doing later. I knew things were starting off wrong. I ignored the following calls but although sometimes in the back of my mind I think about starting again with him, I know that I just can’t do it because it’s not right and he is an a$$hole..ugh he has a wife and a baby. One of my best friends hates the fact that he thinks he can have me like that and she thinks I should be pissed off and cuss his a$$ out and she has a point but on the other hand we have always been weak for each other..I know if I want a repeat of the past, Eddie is only a phone call away. I am not trying to go down that path again with him so don’t worry..I was just venting I guess.

Work- I love the new job. I am definitely free to do what I want and I am very involved with what is going on and that makes me feel great. I am still Editor-in-Chief for the newsletter but now we have to get everything approved by the Mayor’s Office and it’s driving me insane. I set deadlines and they are not getting met because of these new rules..Ugh! On top of that I think they are going to make me change a lot of stuff and that sucks..My newsletter is done, photos and all and I can’t release it. All that hard work down the drain! I need a drink and some d*ck. I have some stress to release!

Thanks for reading! I will talk to you all soon! I will be checking in with my regulars this week and responding to notes!