Dreams

I had a crazy dream last night.  It was vivid last night but it is very blurry this morning and gets even more blurry as the morning progresses.

Anyway, I dreamed that my mom died and the details were not clear but I remember I was in my recovery phase and I made a joke because some one was throwing out her things or something and then I got really sad.  I called my mom’s house (which was weird because in the dream I was already at my mom’s house in my same bedroom)  Anyway, I called and it was my mom’s voice and I was somewhat scared but happy because I thought she was dead.  Anyway, I said, "Mom, I thought you were dead and she said I am dead" She was like "I really don’t feel like talking about it I am just disgusted/sad."  I got very quiet and I said "Why are you sad because you left us?" She said , "Yes, and I didn’t like how I felt when I was dying anyway, I’ll call you when I feel like talking." 

So, yes, my dream was wierd and I wanted to call her but it was like 2 or so in the morning and I didn’t want to freak her out so I’ll call her now.  I didn’t get a call this morning so she is definitely alive and well so that’s great..Oh, just got her on the phone so yeah, she’s great!

I have been sort of lonely lately, like wanting that real love type deal from someone.  Anyway, I reached out to a couple of guys from my old job to check on them.  One is just cool and the other one I thought he had a crush on me at one point but he never came out and said it.  Then, another co-worker/friend through me this going away bash at this Upscale Club/Bar and he came and all my friends were like, he is cute, tall and seems cool..Whassup??? So, I started to look like yeah, he is pretty nice looking.  Anyway we had been playing phone tag and last night he called me and the conversation was really cool.  He is single, no kids, very driven, great job and plans to be a millionaire by 40 soooo..no but really  we talked for over an hour and it was refreshing.  Maybe we will just be cool, who knows what will happen.  I think a lot of my probelem is I DREAM big before I even date the new person, so I will just play it by ear. 

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