Two faced facade

God give me strength I feel like I’m back in prison and I’m home with my family.  I NEVER expected these people to become people that we despise.  Yeah my family has always been consumed by greed but Jesus Christ this is sickening.  I can’t believe that I have to reprogram myself backwards to this mode I call “prison mode”.  It’s kind of like putting yourself on autopilot.  Ive only been home for  a short amount of time but I never thought I would have to ignore the intense ignorance.  I finally made it home after years of suffering on the streets of Camden NJ.  Let me tell you just YouTube, Kensington Philadelphia, “zombie land” I was homeless right across the bridge from Kensington Philadelphia.  So I come home with high hopes that my family would be happy and welcoming me with open arms but I come home finally to realizes that my family are completely different and greed has completely taken and engulfed them and transformed them and created this whole fake ass facade that’s so revealing that a two year old could figure it out.  I’m completely and utterly alone and stressed out every day.  I’m my only friend. This is worse than being on the streets because it’s my family, it’s easier to mistrust a total stranger than your own flesh and blood.  So I have to wear my headphones nonstop and the fakeness is thicker than fog, it could be cut with a knife and put on a sandwich.  It tears my fucking heart out that I have to sit here listen and watch as greed, the sin where sin is born from eat my family like they’re some kind of fish given to a bear.  It’s sad and disgusting.  I found this site and thought it might be nice to get some feedback from people that aren’t corrupted like my family.  I feel like I’m drowning.  That’s all I have for now.  Good night and God speed fellow writers