Well

I guess it goes without saying that I wasn’t able to do it. I did pass out for a little bit, but I came to probably 30 seconds to a minute later. I tried again, yeah, but it didn’t work any better than the first time.

Guess it goes to show I’m too much of a fuck up to even kill myself. I don’t really have immediate access to a gun, or I just would have used that. I’ll try overdosing next time, I guess. 

This is mostly a self-pity journal. Please don’t read if you’re going to judge me. I never let myself really concentrate on how sad I am until I come to OpenDiary, so please let me have this. I get a lot of these entries are overdramatic, but I don’t care.