The Chains You Were

Me, Shannon and Natasha email each other every day. And we’re girls together ~ via email. And it’s cute , and wonderful. It adds a certain freshness to the day.

We were just emailing about our weekend plans. And I am proud and feel accomplished at the fact that I was EASILY able to refer to Jodi as "my friend from Uni". I feel strong and liberated.

When we were nineteen we used to joke that we were each others’ wife. And I’ve just come to realise that , deep down in my heart, she was my wife for a long time.

The love I had harboured over the years for her was that no less of a sister’s. She was HONESTLY… like a sister to me. And sisterly-love is , I gotta say, a pretty fucking HUGE kind of love. Believe me, I have 3 sisters.

I’ve concluded that it was unhealthy.

I feel freed.  I feel like I’ve emancipated myself from this disgusting attachment that I had for her.

Honestly? There’s no attachment there anymore.

And honestly? I’m not even going to TRY to make conversation this Sunday.

*laughs*