Mick and Me

 

Mick
 
November 26 at 10:52pm
 

Hey Dee,

Just thinking of you? What’s your latest interesting thought?

Love, Mick.

 

 

Diosa Deamore
 
December 2 at 12:59pm
 

Hello hello Mr Mick ! How are youuu ? So nice to know that despite the millions of miles between you and this great land of Oz your thoughts can settle on tiny little me : )
I was talking about you to Deity the other day, and I realised then that it has been a good year and some since you left. I can’t believe time has flown so fast ! I can’t believe it’s been that long.
On the weekend me and Sinjay we were walking around Newfarm, and we were about to cross the street when we saw – very obviously a funky band – getting photos done on the corners of the city streets. It reminded me of our band days, we had so much fun! It was so so fun.
So what’s my latest interesting thought? Hmmm… Well, I will be turning 28 in about two weeks and I’ve been mostly thinking about all the things I’ve always wished to achieve by the time I’m 30. It means that once I turn 28 I only have two years to do them in. And they’re not necessarily massive things – just things I’ve always wanted to do, like learning martial arts, learning how to surf, learning ballroom dancing. And other things like getting a motorbike license and going hang-gliding. Things like that.
I have my overseas trip to look forward to – hoping to set off in October. The plan was to go to Hong Kong, London, and Chile. But we may yet have to drop Hong Kong : ( and do it another time. I’m getting more and more excited about it, especially because in London I plan to meet my long-time soul-friend Rachael. It will be wonderful. We will sing together, and drink together, and explore together. It will be wonderful. I don’t quite know where Sinjay will fit in this scenario haha. I just hope he enjoys our trip. He’s not much for jumping out of the box and stretching his boundaries – at all.
I guess none of us ARE – really. When you think about it. I mean, if it were extremely uncomfortable for you to travel round the world, you wouldn’t do it would you. Or if it were extremely uncomfortable for me to sit in front of a computer all day, I wouldn’t do it. I have this theory that is based on this simple concept : Nobody can ignore a simple itch. So if we can’t ignore a simple little itch and we absolutely HAVE to scratch, it means that everything we do in Life is within our comfort zone. Even the wildest of things ! People who do wild things do them because it’s COMFORTABLE to them. It’s comfort – really. It’s home. It’s who we are.
Anyhow – tangent there!
In other news, Jodi is getting married next May.
And other other news… Andre Jai has graduated from Primary School ! I can’t believe how quickly he’s grown! He’s taller than me now, and is very much becoming that typical 13 yo that annoys his younger siblings lol. He’s a handsome young one too, if I may say so myself.
I will reveal to you this one thing: That my mind is a whole other world. And I struggle sometimes to work out which is the real Me. Is it the one that lives within the confines of reality – with a job, with a husband, with a house, with a pet? Or is it the one that flies to endless possibilities with no boundaries, lost in fantasy more often than not, and doesn’t necessarily believe in a wrong or a right? I don’t know.
Anyhow, I shall go. I better get back into ‘work mode’ and be all chic, smart and professional. And pronounce my vowels as though I had a plum in my mouth. Lol. Because you know, I’m dealing with prestigious clients here! lmao
I miss you.
I really really do.
~ Dee

 

 

Mick
December 24 at 1:00pm
 

Hello wonderful gorgeous amazing absolutely beautiful Diosa,

When you send me messages full of Dee fun and wisdom I get all fuzzy and reminiscent. I feel privileged to share a friendship with you. But enough mushy stuff for now. Actually, I’ll tell you now that you will get the biggest hug ever when we next meet. And we’ll sing songs and dance around in this wonderful thing we call life.

I am fine. Back in Europe, and ready to tackle things head on, or cruise along with it which seems to be more my style. The biggest challenge is deciding where to base myself. How cool would it be to meet up during your overseas trip! Regarding this we’ll have to encourage fate a little, but I’ll also need to actually be somewhere that isn’t on the road. Hmm…

Talking about comfort zones, have you ever considered what people accept as truth. That people take for granted the way they think and act in our everyday lives. I think during the 18th century it was hip to search for enlightenment, to search for your own individual truth. Why you exist in the environment you’re in, why you think the way you, why you feel the way you feel about different things… I put this topic in my head during the last year and discovered a lot of people with many different truths but few that actually questioned why they live and believe in what they do. I think this was a question the Matrix challenged, or the Truman Show…

I like that you are conscious of truth and question ideas regarding comfort zones and stretching boundaries… you are developing your own individual truth for existence. Not just accepting things as is, or entirely giving yourself to other truths. And I think your curiosity feeds your creativity. Keep being curious, Dee. Tangents are great.

Check out Barry Lyndon by Stanley Kubrick.

Life is fascinating! Can’t wait till we next meet. I miss you heaps too.

Love,
Mick.

 

 

Diosa Deamore
 
February 20 at 10:54pm
 

Dearest Mick,
First and foremost, pleas forgive me for leaving it so late to write. And also for writeing int the state of mind that I’m in, for I am wholly drunk. Haha. This could be a good or a bad thing, as you might very well know from previou experience ; )
I’ve had a good too many drinks tonight, and decided to get away before it was too late. Let’s just say that what I mean by that is that you know you still got it when a young 22yo boy thinks you’re 22 ; ) Okay, so we danced and kissed a little, but I managed to escape before I found myself in a position that I would regret later. Not for my sake of course, there is no such thing as regret for my sake, but for Sinjay’s sake. I love him deeply and for Love one would do anything, right? At the same time, the boy was cute, but that’s where it ended. It felt somewhat starnged to have his hands roaming my waist , hips and behind, when he doesn’t know me from a bar of soap. Perhaps I have grown? Then again, I never really harboured a habit of meeting with strangers.
Anyhow, I don’t find your descriptions mushy, rather quite overwhelming. Especially as I have to admit I never knew you would ever view me as such. And thankyou. I love you, always have, always will, and you know it. I think we have love, admiration and respect for each other, which I think we always had , regardless.
Anyhow, I had too much to drink, thanks to work matew offering free drinks despite you teling them you dn’t have money to pay them back. And thanks to a 22tyo boy who insisted he found me ‘fascinating’. How I was fascinating by standing there and laughing at every joke thrown into the air, I don’t know. Beats me. It’s always beat me.
I have this fantasy that I will share with you because I can. Because you are Mick, and you will; always be my Mick. and that is that I find myself travelling the world, and exploring, and on one fine winter’s evening (even though I love summer) I find myself rugged up in scarf and beanie, and warm fleecey jacket, and I meet you in a land far away. And I’m lost in your bedroom, with a sarong of some kind hanging from the celing, and a richly textured bedspread on your bed, I think it is actually dark red. And I am laying on your bed, with your beside me, and we are open and giving and sharing, and delving into each others’ minds, and we feel so connected. Like the soul friends we always were, I suppose. I don’t know. And we kiss. And cuddle. And just connect. It is lovely.
Oh for a world without rules huh. But as I’m discovering, it’s not about ‘rules’ to Sinjay. It is about loving me wholly, and not wanting to share me simply because even in a world without rules, he simply wouldn’t. And that’s fine. I’m slowly begining to understand him.
We are currently undergoing relationship counselling. Which has inadvertently turned into counselling ME. I’m a bit messed up in my head, but then I always was. And anyway, I’m begning to understand things…
Anyhow, you asked whether I’d ever considered what people accept as ‘truth’. I have to tell you, this has been an inevitable part of my growing-up, as I grew up in a strictly religious home. There was no truth but what you were taught. Ultimately. And nothing else was accepted. As I grew, I began to question, and to defy, and this was unaccepted. And I felt trapped and suffocated because I couldn’t be ME. I longed and pined and died a million times over to just BE ME. And when I moved out of home, it was delicious freedom. I was who I was, not who I was expected to be, or who I was thought to be. I was ME. And I had my own little room, and my own little life, and my own friends, and my own band 😉 and my own lovers, and my way of B EING. And over time, I have DEFINTIELY questioned people’s truths. Or what they consider to be ‘truth’. My Mum is very bigot-like and belives that only what SHE believes in is TRUTH. I acept and respect that’s what she believes in, but I don’t accept that her truth shoud be ebverybody’s truth. Anyhow, over time I have come to the conclusion that everybody’s perspective is their own. And it’s as though there is almost no right or wrong, really, is there. But there IS because there aren’t many people who would be all for eg: killing, or raping etc. So there IS a wrong and a right out there. But perhaps it’s not the right and wrong that we are taught. For goodness sakes, my mother tried to tell me that I should consider what other people think of me in every action I take, or every behaviour I exhibit. When I was 12 some silly person decided that I was a flirt because I was laughing with a man 10yrs my senior! ohmygoodness, what a slut! haha. As you can probably tell, i decided froma very early age that it didn’t matter wht people thought. At all. Because all that matters is what YOU think. What Yout hink about yourself, and how you view yoruself. And whether you are happy with what you’ve contributed to this world or not.
I admire you a lot. And my frien Rachael. You and Rachael are two people that have designed your own rules for your lives, and you live by them regardless of what the rest of the world does. And I admire and respect this SO MUCH… you have no idea… And sometimes I think why can’t *I* do what Mick or Rachael do? But perhaps I don’t because ultimately it’s not what i believe deep down is for ME. I am a hopeless romantic deep down, and you probaby know that. I don’t like to profess or show it to the world. And I’m glad Sinjay can respect that. But deep deep down, I just want to be with my babe. Ultimately, what’s what everything comes down to. It disgusts me sometimes, but hay. He is a wonderful man. And he’s worth it.
I’m feeing quite dizzy. I should probably have a drink of water.
how are things with you anyway? where are you right now>? what’s your latest adventure, and what’s y our latest fascination, and what your’e latest discovery, and what’s your latest sadness, and your latest frustration? I would love to know everything. How are things with your heart, really? Do you still miss Mia? She was so wonderful for a time.. and I couldn’t imagine the pain you experienced.. I wish I could’ve been there a lot more, and done more, and really truly grasped it, and just been there, you know…Is there any hope of a friendship in the future? Have you been in contact with her at all? Anyhow, you don’t have to share. I’m just curious. And want to know about you. Then again, not everything is there to be KNOWN by others.
Anyhow, I want to tell yout hat I am going to meet my soul-friend Rachael at the end of the year, when we travel. I hope to hug her, and kiss her, and dance with her, and really share with her, and connect with her in real life the way we do in writing… You know… I really care about her.
aNYHOW, i AM VERY VERY DRINK AND WOW i’M WRITING IN CAPITALS ALL OF A SUDDEN HAHA. aND JUST TRYING TO SOBER UP , AS i HAVE TO DRIVE HOME… AT SOME POINT…
wHEN YOU HUG ME TIGHT, YOU KNOW i WILL HUG YOU BACK JUST AS TIGHT.
LOVE YOU HEAPS,
YOUR FRIEND ALWAYS,
DEE