24.02.00 (Alone With Sean)
Okay, so last night was a huge disappointment. We dressed up for the Beach Party and we looked gorgeous. I wore Sylv’s brown sandals, my navy cargo shorts, my blue army-design swimmer top, the blue pendant necklace that Raul sent me for my b’day and my lilac floppy hat (again).
Anyway, we decided we’d have a drinking night so I drank my favourite: Bourbone & Coke. But I’ve decided I’m never gonna drink again. How dum. I drank 3 DRINKS, which is usually my limit. I’m pretty hypo by 3 drinks usually. (Okay, so I’m basing that on ONE TIME I had only 3 drinks, but anyway…) AND NOTHING HAPPENED!! I felt a little queasy in the legs and danced through 7-9 techno and R&B songs straight, and that was it. Otherwise, I was as normal as ever! THAT SUX.
I don’t wanna have to drink any MORE you know. I’ll get used to 4 drinks, then 5, then 6, soon enough I’ll be addicted. No, no, no, no. No thank YOU!
So I’m not drinking ever again.
Anyway, we got there and it was dead as. Hardly anyone was there. And nobody had gone out of their way to look extra ‘beachy’. And of course my prediction had been right – Matt baby was not there.
Gosh I’m crazy. I can’t believe how ATTACHED I feel towards him just cos we were a little cuddly one night. We didn’t even KISS! Well, HARDLY! If you can call THAT a kiss! I’m gonna be a wreck if I bring him home…
No no no. I shall not invite him home.
Anyway, so we called Seanus and he dropped Jodi and Sylv into town and I went back home with him. It was really weird cos it was just me and him. It was like ‘Um… he’s a man… and I’m a woman… and we’re alone.’
I’ve had naughty fantasies of being left alone with him before and we end up having sex, not because he’s extremely attractive to me, but just because I know that he thinks I’m sexy (he’s told me before, in front of Sylv even) and because it would be SO NAUGHTY. Sleepin’ with my best friend’s man. NOT that I would do it, don’t get me wrong. NO WAY. She is my best friend, I love her and our friendship means more than anything. It’s just a crazy fantasy.
He went into his room and closed the door and turned the TV on. I went for a shower, which is right next to his room and they’ve got a sliding door leading to it. As I came out though, I decided I’d jsut get dressed in my room instead of the bathroom and thought ‘What the hell. Seanus is in his room anyway.’
But as I stepped out I was surprised to see him in the living room! He’d just turned the TV in the living room on and I’m thinking ‘He KNEW I was coming outa the shower! How dare he…’
I quickly walked past and said ‘goodnight’ and moments after I’d come in and locked the door, I heard him turn the TV off and go back into his room. I was shocked! And I’m still hoping it was all a huge coincidence.