23.02.00 (Bumping Into Matt – I Love Him)

Me’n’Jode got all dressed up for the Toga Party last night. We looked so good. But it was PACKED and they weren’t letting any more people in. Just as we arrived to line up, I saw Matt, just in front of us. I tapped him on his shoulder and he turned around. He was sober. MY GOSH !! HE WAS SOBER !!! 🙂 Only once though, did I catch a glance of approval in his eye as he looked at me, and down at my lips. Though it was that kind of look that says ‘I’m about to crack up’ that guys give you, when really they mean they like what they see. Steven used to do it all the time. As well as Gene and Josh. I was wearing lipstick. He’s never seen me with lipstick on. I wasn’t sweaty, my fringe plastered to my forehead, and I wasn’t hypo. I was being my normal daytime self.

As we left (we couldn’t be bothered to wait) and he left with Mark and 2 other guys, I nonchalantly waved goodbye and he didn’t even turn to say goodbye, and was just walking off. But later, as *I* was the one walking off, Jodi goes "Oh how cute". I said, "What?" And she told me that he kept looking back, like saying ‘Oh… no…. you’re going… we’re leaving… no…’. And just as i turned to see him, I realised he was talking to me. "Thursday night Diossah!! Come Thursday night!!"
"Yep." I replied to myself. He was outa sight. But Mark saw me reply. So hopefully he told him "Yep mate. She says yep." 🙂

‘Thursday night’. Does that mean he won’t come tonight? 🙂

Here’s a little song I made up today:

Matthew S I love you
even though you won’t believe it
Matthew S I like you
even though you may not like me as much
Matthew S I’m in love with you
and I always have been
From the moment your eyes locked into my own
and I treasure every moment that we’ve shared
Matthew S I’m in love with you
and I always have been