So tired..

I don’t like myself. At all.

I wish that I could be another person. Or just change myself totally. I cannot think of one thing that I actually do like in me.

I shouldn’t even try hanging out anymore. I don’t fit in. I’ve realized this more lately. It’s always been in the back of my head but all of a sudden became clearer. I really don’t have any place with certain people. And it’s not fun anymore.

I’ve been hyper and happy for the majority of this time, but the past few days sort of lost it all. Since Saturday, actually.. I want that euphoric feeling I had last week and the week before back, but I don’t know.

I’ve lost it all…Everything’s different, everyone’s changed. I hate that I have, too.

And my stomach hurts…I don’t like food…I’m just gonna like, not eat much anymore like I used to. So much better…

See ya.

[Rage].

July 14, 2005

hey sweetei depressed again/ =(..that sucks i was like yyeeey shes finally happy, but dam..u know..we who are used to misery and pain and depression we ghet addicted to it, and when we become happy for a short while the depression after it increase so why be happy if ull be sad..that what i say u know..ti shouldnt be right tho..i hope u really just get i dunno howevere u want, and ur sweet and

lovable like that bt urself..im sure people do ;)…so dont look so down on urself cuz if u think people are, fcuk ’em..uu make people look at the way they do at ya, and im sure there alot who loves ya in many ways other than the way we unfortunatelyn eed..tc hun!

Jesuro

Please, dont change yourself. You are the one ive fallen so deeply for, please dont become someone else.