Fuck..fuckfuckfuck…

So…as this is private…

Fuck it. All. So what the hell is going on with this world lately.

• People have changed.
  • Marc-best friend at one time. Total dick. [major thing right now] He fucking changed so much right now..doesn’t even realize it. And me and Jacky are like wtf. We’re the only ones who have noticed it..Everyone else just shrugs it off. I dont say this about many people but he should just go off and fucking die or something. He’s being a fucking dick to Jacky right now, I refuse to even talk to him since yesterday, and Jacky does not deserve this fucking bullshit. WHAT THE FUCK. Every minute that goes by just makes me hate him more and more, and the more that he acts like this the worse it is. Oh my fucking god.
  • The other people changing is just worrying. Michy and Kyna mainly. Random hookups, like people they dont know, random hand jobs..getting drunk all the fucking time..its seriously scaring me, but i cant do much but hope for their safety…
  • Andrew and Eddy….just worrying..why do guys fucking like me?!?!?! Joe..I love him..he’s awesome..but why does he take so much from me? i dont deserve him..I really dont..
• Family
  • Parents bitching.
    • Mother bitching on me every five minutes, though today she was sort of cool. She’s actually bitching on all three of us, mainly me and gregory
    • They’re fighting so much with each other..all the time..I’m like wtff.
  • Annie
    • she’s ok thank goddess. if she wasnt i dont know what i’d do.
• Tired..
• Eating too much
  • I really have no self confidence lately. I feel so fucking fat, ugly, all that. Wait, I am..no wonder i feel it! seriously its like, whyyyyyyy. Why can’t i be pretty or skinny? its pointless for me to be here.

ITS FUCKING POINTLESS!

Today I feel, and felt better. Nothing else matters, I just feel stronger.  Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing.

How I wish..