5/30/05

i want it to pour. rain like it never has before. thunder so loud and lightning so much, get so dark that you cant see in front of you, except for the split seconds that the lightning crashes. the smell of the rain surrounding you. the feel of it on you.

i also want it to never be light again. the darkness is so much prettier, and the light is just so bad. whats the reason to be here? theres no one in this world to trust, theres no reason to trust anyone, or like anyone. or love anyone. or whatever. theres nothing! i cannot fucking wait till college. i want to go so fucking far, that my name will not even be remembered. that or the day i die. it makes no difference to be alive or not, so it would be so easier to be dead.

i couldnt care less about anyfuckingthing right now. whats the fucking point.

Kutless_Chik

May 30, 2005

There is hope, and life is worth living. Stick with it! =^)

irreplaceable

listen the last thing i need to have on my mind is that u want to kill yourself. please dont. listen i really need to talk to you so if ur not busy one day please give me a call if u still have my number. if you dont give george or michelle. they should have it. PLEASE CALL

I’ve been down the road and have felt what you are feeling now; just so you know that that you are being understood. I hear the words you speak and see the pain for I have lived it. Blackness will eventually turn to grey, the key is to get angry about something, really angry… then annoyed, then frustrated and eventually you’ll just laugh at how ridiculous it all is and your “color” will change.