The Spiritual Law of Humanity

Spiritual – relating to or affecting the human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things.

Law – the system of rules which a particular country or community recognizes as regulating the actions of its members and which it may enforce by the imposition of penalties.

Humanity – the word humanity is from the Latin humanitas for “human nature, kindness.” Humanity includes all the humans, but it can also refer to the kind feelings humans often have for each other.

I went to see a movie tonight. Like actually in the movie theaters and decided to take my Adult Inner Self to watch a movie on the Santiago Camino trail. In the movie, people taking the path spoke about why they did it, and most of the answers were not at all what I assumed would the in the film. I wanted to see people talking about their personal struggles with life, humanity, and God. Their desperate ask and pleas for sanity, for love, and for acceptance. There was one short story on that, but not the true sweat and tears that a spiritual experience can truly represent and bring up.

Like those infamous “broke down to rock bottom”, crying on the floor, giving yourself over to God type of shit. I think the more I see it, the more I can understand it, the more I can feel safe enough to let go and let God.

When I first heard about the Camino trail, I thought it was a great idea, and the many other pilgrimages to walk until you “see the light”. To beat yourself up to walk miles and hours long just to pause yourself at a church or statue? To sacrifice your comfort, but to just see a symbol of what only truly exists inside you?

I thought about this..would this truly work for me? I go on walks, whether it’s the same park circling it until the sun goes down, or discovering new parks. It’s a tiny bit to see the beauty of the world, but really it’s to lose myself until I have let go of the matter at hand that has me tied down. Until I can see the world as it truly is, without judgment of my own that I have created. Until it is nothing, but everything that it truly is all at the same time. See, for me, to enjoy and discover God would be through silence, kindness (humanity), and to be still. I am completely and easily able to take control and walk a path until I have fought and when I finally let go is when I can “see it” and “get it”. And since I can so easily and effortlessly do that, I know that’s not really a connection to God. Because it’s something you will continuously want and feel like doing – walking with control and matter with a destination of symbols as your end of the journey treat. So I think it will be hard to feel some sort of actual peace when it’s a “something” you are chasing. It’s only when you truly let go, is when you do nothing and be still. Your intent is to do nothing, about everything.

I was thinking about this in the movie today. I can easily walk this trail. I’ve been born to walk aimlessly, it’s actually a passing passion of mine – to just move. But I also know that I can continuously do it, because I know the outcome. Also, I thought about how even though I can study Christianity/Catholicism and discover their symbols and focus on structure and beauty to lure in their followers, it’s all externally based. For some reason, I just can not connect with other people on. Maybe because I was not raised on it, I have no internal symbol or connection to it. So I thought what would I actually benefit from? Not the science, not the stories, but the actual will and action of it? It would have to be to sit still and go within. Quiet and peace. This is what I chase. The temple within. The far and hard to get into with the closed doors and even longer walks to get to the entrance of the door. It’s what I’ve chased my whole life, and I can find it in multiple ways, with different physical locations and settings. It’s the calling of the connection within. To be satisfied and at peace with yourself and everything around you, as it truly is. Removing the flaws, the judgment, and the ideas. Removing the internal critical parent.

There are 12 Spiritual Laws, 12 Steps, 12 Apostles, and the 12 Cycles. Why is the magical number 12? Connected to Myth and Magic, and Religion? And they say if you add it together it creates the holies number to humanity: 3..completion in humanity. If 12 is the ending point, then 3 is the new beginning. I could go on and on. But how do we all not realize by now it’s all time to give up, and let God. If we took less control of things we could have more understanding and humanity.