2 more days to go!

Well it’s finally getting there. I work tomorrow, and then I have the entire next week off work. I plan on packing and getting some stuff done around the house on Saturday and then leaving to drive to my parent’s house on Sunday. I was going to do the dishes before I left so that any dishes that are dirty when I get back are my roommates but when I went to start the dishwasher…I realized there is no more dishwasher cleaner things. Because my roommate doesn’t pay attention or go shopping. So…no dishes are getting done before I leave unless he stops at the store or I feel like going on Saturday to pick some up. But I am tired of buying everything for this house and he doesn’t do shit. Not even getting on that topic again.

Anyways, my mood is decent today. The odd thing is I feel really drained and just so tired/sleepy. I get plenty of sleep. But the strangest thing is that even though I feel fine, every so often I get a wave of fatigue and then I feel like crying. For no reason what so ever. I also have a few people that I enjoy talking to no matter what mood I’m in. My mom, K, and Jake. K is the guy I’m interested in/one of my closest friends, and Jake is one of my best friends. We talk about everything and anything. He understands my moods more than anyone, except for K really. But a testament to how I’m feeling right now…I was talking to K earlier but the conversation ended and usually I’d find something to talk to him about or just poke at him for fun. I actually have no inclination to message him. Right now I honestly don’t care if I talk to him the rest of tonight or not. I think I’m finally distancing myself from him a bit and that was greatly needed. I look forward to spending time with him when I get back from my vacation though. Of course I’ll still be talking to him every day next week as always.

I really hope this little vacation helps my mood. I need a break from work, from this house and roommate. Plus I haven’t seen my parents, or my brother, in about a year. I have gone way longer without seeing them than that before but right now…I need my mom. We are very close and I honestly just want to curl up with my head in her lap. I don’t care how old I am, I’ll always need my mom. I went through somewhat of a tough time in March 2019 and I went home for a few days. I just needed my mom. I love my dad too of course but I’m close with my mom. She is always there for me and I need that so much right now. I think she is more excited than I am about me coming home. She will probably be waiting on the porch the moment I’m pulling into the driveway.

Well that’s all for now. Peace!