So lonely I am not sure what to do..

Tonight as it creeped near time for my husband to get near time to get home my stomach was so sick.  I hate this time of day anymore, it’s sad I used to look forward to it.  Nothing was better tonight, dead silence.  My daughter and I sat and barely ate and he walked through the house.  Then he grabbed a water and sat outside for the night until I fell asleep. Is anyone else going through this?