These thoughts of mine. It’s not the first time.

What do I do when I think of you. Nothing. There is pain from what could have been.

I wish you could have just told me that you didn’t see a future with me. I felt it. I knew it. Played. Betrayed.

I pushed the feeling away along with the rest. That’s what I get. Being so naive. It gets me into trouble.

There is no love when you can’t remember what to do for it. Love me to death. No.

My wish is not your command. Are you good enough for me. Perhaps it’s my fault. "No".

I taught myself how to love. I made bad choices. I think I loved a man. Who am I to say. I’m just a girl.

"Forgive her. For she does not know what she does." No Forgiveness for my sins. Prefer punishment.

No will for effort. I’m not the one. It’s okay to say. In my place there’s another. Kiss the curse away. No need.

I light this cigarette. Close these eyes. Think no more.

How are you feeling today Ruby?

"I don’t know…there’s nothing"

Why do you say that?

"Because…because there’s a black hole"

A black hole? What do you mean?

"Look it’s a black hole, where the heart…my heart is supposed to be"

Oh my, does it hurt?

"No, but don’t get to close, you might get sucked in"