Disappoint

Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?
"No"

Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil’s embrace
Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.
I can’t forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It’s not enough
I’ve come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none
Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat
And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I’ve been trying
To surmise
Though you are gone
I am still your sun
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun