Strong and Fearless.

Today has been a amazing busy, but accomplished, day. I managed to almost complete my power point, make serious waves on one paper. I cleaned my house and washed Jayden’s school uniforms. I fixed dinner. I managed to do all of these things with this huge hole in my heart. I think it will always be that. I think that is what moving forward is about. Letting going and moving on despite these feelings you just can’t control. You just can’t go back. Would I truly WANT to go back? No. I have accomplished so much in that period of time. I am this totally accomplished and strong person. Would I have been that with him? Most-likely not. Right now I am so strong and fearless. I’m attacking everything and not fearing failure. I’m being a complete mover and shaker and doing my thing. At 30 I am so sure of who I am.Sometimes I have these moments of weakness but I am always so sure of who I am although what I want sometimes can be a little shaky. I felt like such a girl a few days ago. Why do I need someone to be proud of me? I am soo proud of myself and that just HAS to be good enough.