New Year , New Beginnings

Personal Log 0940.132023

Before I get started I noticed that this site is free for like thirty days and then you have to pay to keep using. Im sorry I am not playing a penny for your thoughts where I have to pay to write. If anything it should be the other way around. Any how with that being said I dont know if I will be continuing after thirty days.

New Years, always an interesting time of the year. People party, set goals, make resolutions, some even look back on the previous year and decide on what needs to be improved and in what areas. New years for some tho is just another day. I never did new year resolutions cause no one ever really kept to them. I figure it was just a way for people to try and trick themselves into doing things they don’t or didn’t want to do. Millions of people say “my new years resolution is to get into shape.” So they start going to the gym and working out, well that might last the first couple of weeks and then they start putting off, which is them saying yea I give up on this. I am going to eat healthier, week later here comes the cheeseburger and fries with a milkshake. Guess I never saw the point in a resolution. But then I had someone ask me what mine was, and of course I told them I didnt do resolutions because they are a waste of time, and gave the examples I just gave here. They chuckled and smiled and said thats because people set unrealistic goals sometimes. Now I am not saying that eating healthier or getting into shape is unrealistic, because they are good goals, but how much drive are you going to have? That is whats unrealistic. Fads and things of this nature are unrealistic. So what is a realistic goal for you if you want to call it that. I thought a moment and was like you know thats true. Never thought about it like that. So I have had the same resolution as I have had in years past. To continue to grow and learn in my faith, to grow closer to God, to be a better husband than I was the year before, and to be a better person than I was the previous year.

I have had some tell me that I am good and that what I do is good enough. And you know what, that doesnt sit right with me. Because I dont want to be just good enough. To me thats like doing just enough to get by, and thats not me. I had a great weekend, had a wonderful time with my wife and mother in law, got to kiss my wife in the new year, things were good. Could have been better but things were good. You might ask what could be better, well first off we could not of been sick, that would have been nice. To me, New Years is like… chapters in a book. Where one chapter ends, another begins. We all should strive to do better, to be better, to want better. But here is the thing, people sit around and wait for better to happen, and its not because it doesnt happen that way. If you look and listen closely enough to what is going on, you can hear the crys. People crying out for something different, for change, they want to see a difference being made, they want to see change happen. Its an outcry it really is, think about it… still dont see it? Well lets look at a few things in recent history. We had the whole race thing again, which sparked the “black lives matter” and then shortly after that you had the “blue lives matter” which was for the outcry of our police forces. And now we have another division, and that is over COVID. Every where I look I see division. We turn to our government to make things better or right, and they say they will because of the outcry, but politically what do they gain from it. Which is why I dont vote. Because I know I am not going to get an honest answer to any of my questions, I am going to get a political answer. But thats a whole different area anyway. But people want to see change, they want to see a difference, but they create these things and create more division. Its not black lives matter or blue lives matter. Its not, what it is tho is All Lives Matter. Thats what it should be because there is no division in that.

People cry out for change, they want to see changes made, they want to see a difference being made in there neighborhoods and towns but they never will, and when they time comes where drastic change does happen it will be to late. Its easy to sit around and yell and scream and argue and fight over things that you believe to be right, or when an injust thing has occured, or when things just seem to be going down hill. To first fix a problem is to recognize that there is one.

Just real quick let me give a little bit of back ground on myself. I am a typical guy, who goes to work does his job and does his best to take care of his family. I served in the military for almost 11 years and I am now a combat vet, served in the federal government for 5 years, and now work as a low level security guard. I have been homeless three times in my life, and oh by the way I have my BSM for all the good that it does me. BSM means Bachelor of Science in Management. I have done my time in service and I have lived a life that most would have given up on. I have had anything but an easy life. But one thing I have come to know and understand is that our government does not care about anything but itself. So for those that are waiting on our government to make things better, your going to be waiting for a while. By now your wondering what the point is, well here you go. With everything I have been through, I have not given up even when it seems like the whole of the world has turned its back on me. I still fight on. I fight on to try to make a difference, to bring change in my small little part of this world. If you are reading this one and havent read my other entries then after reading this one I recommend you go read I Dont Know entry. And all of this will kind of bring things together.

Now back on subject of my rant for the day. People are sitting around waiting for someone else to come up and fix their problems. And I hate to be the bearer of bad news but no one can and/or is able to do so. The only people that can make a difference and bring real change is ourselves. But heres the problem with that. No one wants to change! Therein lays the problem, people are unwilling to change themselves so there will never be any real change. People are to selfish anymore. So like I said in my entry I Dont Know, people like me, who are trying to make a difference and be a positive change and influence, we get looked at like we are strange like we are up to no good. I cant even fully explain it to you because lets just face it, I dont fully understand it either. I can only speak on what it is I see and experience myself. As I look at humanity in this era, I am saddened at the direction it is going. Because, unfortunately things are just going to continue and get worse as we go along. Children are going to get even more confused, and people are going to get even more self-centered and sensitive to things that they find offensive. I for one dont really care if you get your feeling hurt by what I say. Because lets face it, people want to hear the truth, because they cant handle THE truth. They want the truth told to them so that it makes them feel better and justified, not THE truth where it actually might be painful to hear. Just like I do not condone nor do I tolerate this whole gay transgen les community thing that they have going on. And again this is where THE truth comes in and no one wants to hear it because they would be condemned by it.

Because here is THE truth, and it comes right out of the book of Romans the very first chapter as a matter of fact. This is the very reason why I do not tolerate the gay community.

Romans 1:18 – 32 NASB 1995

“For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, because that which is known about God is evident within them; for God made it evident to them. For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse. For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God or give thanks, but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing to be wise, they became fools, and exchanged the glory of the incorruptible God for an image in the form of corruptible man and of birds and four-footed animals and reptiles crawling creatures.