February 1, 2021

Why can’t money buy happiness?

I know what it is like to barely have enough and to live paycheck to paycheck. I also know what it is like to have good steady income. I am finally in my element. Or so I thought Five months ago the place restructured. Many good people took the severance package and left. If I had known what I know now, I would have taken the package too. Just because people leave doesn’t mean the work disappears.

I am torn because I am now so unhappy at this steady and well paid place. I used to love everything I did. I enjoyed the challenges that came with my role until we restructured and now I am supposed to do my job and fulfill a second role too.

I find myself working even longer hours than before but on an island by myself. I have been contemplating resigning. I have discussed with my reporting supervisor that I have a lot on my plate and want to do it all but it’s impossible. He told me to prioritize and just ‘get it done.’ He is overworked to, but I feel so stuck.

I want to leave but I need my medications. If I stay, I will probably end up 6 feet under soon enough too.

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February 2, 2021

I was once in a job that gave opportunities to grow, with high pay rates. But looking to people who are already up there, who are so messed up, toxicated, imbalanced, famous but still UNHAPPY, I DECIDED TO STAY ON MY COMFORT ZONE WHERE IM HAPPY, CONTENDED. There’s a point where we shoul say NO not because we couldn’t do it, but because it would control over you. And when you reach saturation point, its total downfall. So an inch of demotion if you could, would not hurt that bad. Even to your paycheck. You’re still a winner because you can breathe now..