245am

Hi all,

It is 245 am in the morning ,

I am sitting here watching tv and im bored so I thought I would get on here and write a entry ,

It is too quiet tonight – my wife is having a girly night at our friend Jens house , im glad shes having a good time but I miss her alot when she is gone and it makes me realize how much I care about her and enjoy having her in my life .

I hope I can continue to make things better between us cause I love having her in my life and I don’t want to live my life without her in it – I really miss her when she is gone but I also know she needs a break from me and the kids I truly hope she understands that I am trying really hard to be a better person and that she means the world to me I also hope she feels the same way about me – I know she loves and cares about me but she doesn’t  tell me how she feels about me other than saying I love you – she says it is hard for her to show affection and I know in the past I really messed things up between us and that I hurt her emotionally and that it is going to take time for her to be able to say more and im going to keep working on being better for her and for me .

I hate when we get into  fights and it brings me down so low when I upset her cause I want her to be happy with me and not upset at me – I don’t ever mean to make her mad but somtimes I just say the wrong thing and she gets upset I wish I could always say the right things cause I love her and I don’t like seeing her mad or upset with me !!