Things I Never Did

Up in Heaven, beyond the annex, my body remains youthful, never to grow. As I watch in wonder at the world. I feel regret to the things I will never do. Beyond my control war took took my life. It amazes me that my simple words as a girl could inspire the world, but sometimes I just wish I could of lived, and not be so noteworthy. I never got to say marriage vows, or find someone to give them to. I never crossed the vast ocean. I never had flower garden to tend. My skin never wrinkled with age, time, wonder, life. I remain the girl you know  in images. I never made love, had a passionate romance. I never danced in a fountain, sang on a rooftop. I never skinny dipped, I didn’t see the Berlin wall fall. I missed having over 60 birthdays. I never fufilled my potential. I never messed up in my twenties to be redeemed in my thirties. I never got divorced. I never had babies and enjoyed/survived childbirth. I never drove a car or even learned how. I did read books but missed out on decades of publications. I watched war from Up Here, thankfully never enduring another but I never had a soldier to kiss/leave. I keep my girlish mentaility, my innocence. I never matured except in the eyes of millions of people who read all my words. I didn’t intend my words to be seen, just like any girl today with their lockandkey diaries. I had hopes, dreams, wishes that never were fufilled. I never made mistakes because I never got the chance. I wish I had posterity, I wish I had wrinkles, I wish I could of done what I wanted to do. Be what I wanted.

But I didn’t.

Anne