04/28/2011

Well from my altered workout system i am doing now (even thou i have hardly gotten to workout this week), i can already feel a bit of the difference in my body, i feel stronger and better over all. I do miss jogging abit, and did enjoy pushing myself further and further, but dont like the fact that it was destroying my muscle. Alwell the half marathon thing was more a goal i set along time ago when i first quit smoking. It wasnt really high priority. But i know my number 1 issue, its my dieting, i overall eat pretty awesome during the day, healthy fruit, veggies, yogert, cottage cheese, almonds, health good stuff and the right sizes, but after dinner around 8pm i get snackish, whcih is fine somethign healthy like fruit or viggies or even popcorn with a small amount of butter would be fine really, but i dont stop there..lol i’ll eat crap and lots of it, and for the most part im not even hungry, i just want taste… maybe time to chew gum are something. And then in the middle fo the nights again i am snacking crazy again… so bad i was down to no snacking in the middle of the night or lightly (handful of grapes, or half a granola bar etc) now i’ll eat 2 granola bars, or 2 pieces of toast, or whatever again…. i hate it, i really do, i really just wished i could sleep throughout the fucking night and not wake up 3 or 4 times, if i didnt wake up i wouldnt snack, mind you if i had an ounce of self control at 2am i wouldnt snack either. sleeping zombie James cares not for diet plan… bastard. Alwell enough about that crap, i will get ym diet fixed somehow.

Dante was good for the most part yesterday for his birthday, thou after 3pm or so he did start to get very trying, i know he is teething badly and growing pains and just crazy active and all, but me and nikki have been so worn out lately and stressed, with just work, money and life at the moment (its really not bad, but just feels that way lately) that its hard to deal with him, and he isnt even being that bad (as far as babies go…) its just been ARGGGGG! ya know. But really i think 1 is enough, i honestly dont want to do this again, the whole baby thing, i can honestly say that, i really dont have the paitences for it. I try and i’m not saying i am a bad dad, but really going through this once it plenty for me thanks. If we do decided to have another one later on, we are really leaning on adopting a little girl, you know 2 or 3 years old where this baby stage is already gone. Or just leaving it with Dante and only 1 kid altogether.

Today should be alright, Wife had to go to a business meeting first thing this mornign at 7am, so was gone early and Dante let me sleep in until 8am, which was awesome, he has been fairly good this morning aside from going places he shouldnt be and bumping his head alot… goofy kid think he would learn after the first 5 or 6 times, but no. Good thing he’s got daddies tough head. Wife goes to work this afternoon at the school, hopefully Dante with have a good afternoon nap and i can hit a good Insanity workout and tidy the house up and do so writing.

Well i need some food…