wow…

so i was just reading old entries and ive noticed 2 things:

one; i had many, many issues during the beginning of high school.

two; mana used to, like, LIVE at my house.

lol. siriusly, like, every other entry was "and manas here right now…"

i miss those days.

i kept seeing all these entries about joe… and i keep thinking about him… not in the "im sad without him…" way cuz thats not it. its the "he was a really good friend, really… and i fucked it up" way. is that bad? i want to write him a letter, just apologizing, and leave it in his mailbox or something. no return address or anything. if he wants to try and contact me somehow he can, otherwise, i dont care. i just want to apologize. i never truly did. and i guess its really starting to eat at me. would it be bad to do so??

*sigh*

ill think about it….

but seeing as for the past 4ish days i havent gone to bed till after 2 in the afternoon, im going to sleep now. and its only quarter to 11.

YAY BED!

later