Here I am. Are you?

I am new to this.

I have been told to write in a journal and things will feel better, so here I am.

I am one to bottle in my emotions. Never good.

When I explode, it helps no one. Not me, especially. Even if you’d think it would because I did the explosion. I was the bomb.

But it doesn’t. It frustrates me. It makes me feel more vulnerable with no subject. It is an unfinished hundreds of thoughts that goes no where.

Except maybe backwards.

Where do I go from here?

Back to the start.. or before.