3/7/06

Well, where does one begin? I am tired of fightin with people. I am tired of hidin how I feel just to avoid more fightin and arguin. I won’t go into detail on how this feelin started, or what prompted it as it is pointless. All I am goin to say that the last 2 days I have been made to feel as though I have done everythin wrong in a friendship. Ya know what, I made a few mistakes. I may not agree with some opinions on what I did, but atleast I know I made mistakes. I know that I have lost the trust of certain people that I care about. But what hurts is that my mistakes have been brought up again. What hurts is that I have been made to look a total fool, that I can’t do a damn thing right. I really don’t like the who did what game. I am 27 years old. Gonna be 28 in less then 2 weeks. Go figure, how do ya think my birthday is gonna be this year? Sucky most likely. The few friends I do have mean the world to me.

Like I said before, I am tired of fightin and arguin. But I am more tired of not sayin anythin to avoid a confrontation. I have feelins too. And they have been hurt. I guess it is time fer me to just stay away from everyone I know fer awhile. Cuz apparently all I do is screw up.

I can’t really ellaborate more on how I feel as I am at work. I don’t have my computer at home, been without fer awhile as it had a virus. So this whole thing with writin at work sucks. Lunch is over, but I have more feelins that I want to put down. So hopefully I may get a chance to get back later today and put down more feelins. Though I doubt I can’t say enough on how I feel right now, considerin I am havin seriously mixed emotions.