Ready To Gooooo!
I’m currently buzzing off of a teeny weeny airplane bottle of 100-proof rum. A store sold it to me by accident, and I quickly learned the difference, lol. It’s very strong.
Yes, I do drink from time to time. There’s actually no verse that says we can’t drink. The verse is against drunkenness. More specifically, habitual drunkenness.
However, it’s not exactly beneficial to get a buzz. One can get “drunk” off the Holy Spirit and have a much more fulfilling experience. But still, the human in me sometimes likes to do stupid human things.
Trying to make money to pay my bills today was like pulling teeth. I actually have more people against me than I thought I did. Some merchants have sold out. Some customers have sold out, too. The companies are all loot mongers, so all you can do is choose the lesser evil these days. None of them comprehend or care that people can’t actually earn anything.
Meanwhile, there are people online bragging about how they make $1,500 a week and so forth. I can wholeheartedly say that that is NOT me, and it has never been me. Maybe they live somewhere else. Maybe they don’t get throttled and “parametered” like I do. Perhaps they are friends with the principalities. Who knows? But I have never had such a week or anything even remotely close to it. Never.
The sad part is that most of the people who screw with my income know what they’re doing, and they’re still choosing to do it anyway. It’s very ugly, and it’s also sad because of how much I love and care for other people.
Not much happened in my life today except for scrambling to make some change to offer the bill collectors and fighting the people and organizations who don’t want me to accomplish that.
Long story short, I can’t drive far away if I don’t have the gas. If I have to pay to put gas in the tank, I am only losing money to service other people’s customers. No one in their right mind would agree to waste their time and effort and not profit a single penny. I don’t mind doing volunteer work, but I’ll need to be in a better position than I’m in now before I can do that.
The systems are designed to make me drive far, even if there’s an actual merchant right by me. That goes far beyond standard profit-raising tactics. If it’s not outrageous miles, it’s two, three, or four “jobs” stacked on top of each other for the same extremely low “offer”.
I’m effing tired. The world sucks, and I no longer want to be in it. I pray to close my eyes and NOT have to wake up in this rotten place anymore. I am not a person who would ever facilitate such things, but if the Heavenly Father were to take me out of this world naturally, I would NOT be mad AT ALL. Please let me close my eyes and wake up in paradise or some such. Please take me the hell up out of here, lmao. I’m ready to goooooo.