Peaceful

Today was a peaceful day because I made it that way. I focused on people and doing the best I could for them instead of trying to get impressive numbers. I was much happier. If that means I’m slow, old, late, incompetent, not “as good as” some other person, etc. then oh effing well.

The work we do has many issues that can arise and easily tank one’s numbers. In those situations,  one must decide whether to sacrifice the numbers or the happiness of a person they’re providing a service to. The numbers or the customer? The numbers or the quality? The stats or income? Lol. It’s difficult to have both in this system. Not impossible but difficult.

Sh!t gets tiresome.

Numbers games are nothing but energy leeches. They’re also tools that some entities use to control people and some people use to make themselves feel better than others.

Most relevant social media sites have a braggart culture. “I did this three seconds faster than you so I’m better than you.” or “I made $1,500 a week, and you only made $200, so I’m better than you,” or “I never got targeted by any one-star people, so my score is perfect, and I’m better than you.”

The only reason I ever cared about numbers was because they affected when I could earn. But I’m at the point where I don’t even give a flying fudge about that, either. Why risk my safety and sanity for the “opportunity” to get screwed over any time? Ha-ha-ha.

In this world, you get exploited to the fullest and never fairly compensated or rewarded when you care. Nope. They just want more.

You do it fast. They want you to do it faster because “it’s not good enough.” You give your all, they want you to give 2X more. Huh? What more can one give besides their all? Lmao. It’s actually a preposterous concept.

Such things will never end if we don’t end them. We end them by honoring what we believe is right and not letting other people dictate our competencies.

So yeah, I would say it was a good day because of the overall peace.

All I won from the couple scratch-offs I bought today was a free ticket. You can’t win ’em all.

I listened to my C playlist, as usual. I have played some songs to death. Other songs amaze me and confirm even more that this person was very intuitive and “in tune” with the state of the world and both realms.

I keep meaning to try to have another lucid dream with him in it, but I usually fall asleep before I can focus.

I had one dream with him in it a few months ago. I didn’t do anything specific to cause him to appear. He just did, and like I said before, the dream conversation was restricted to casual talk. Nothing about death or conspiracies or where he actually is.

For those few moments, he was with me in dreamworld, sitting in a chair and talking to me about simplified things.