Question Two

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind: Marc and Angel Hack Life.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?

Easy answer – Never trying is worse. Far worse. The trite response is “You never know until you try.”

I find it funny. In my life I have fallen on my face so many times, but I do not view that as failure (now at least). It is simply things not going as planned. Things can and will go so unbelievably wrong, and Murphy seems to poke his laws into many things constantly. But that does not mean it is a failure.

The failure is not even trying.

But often things hold me back – fear of “failing,” the fear of things not turning out the way I want or having a negative impact often keeps me from trying. It used to be that if things did not go as planned, I failed. An example of this is from the beginning of my diary – the hell of trying to find a teaching position after I finished my program and how I was made to feel as a failure because I could not; OR that I was a failure because I did not accept the ones I was offered.

At the time I felt horrible. Depressed is an understatement of what was going through me head. Everything I said or did, I was made to feel as if I had ruined my life and let everyone in my family and around me down.

Yeah, that doesn’t fuck a person up.

BUT after a year I was offered the position at PHS – and this year starts my 6th teaching there. I can look back now and see that I went through difficult times, but it was not an “epic fail” as much students would say; it was just a bump in the road that I had not foreseen, but it ultimately got me to a place where I am happy to be.

Thus, it was not “failure.” The failure would have been if I had given up, and obviously I didn’t.