Letter 2 – Crush / significant other

Dear Boy,

Next month we start year four together. I look back and am still surprised that we met, and more so that we did not sooner. I know we saw each other around town, which I find funny – but looking back, the time was not right. In my case, I was so damaged I could not have even really functioned in a relationship.

I don’t know how you stumbled across me on myspace, but I am glad you left that note about The Mighty Boosh (we still have to watch that you know), and that you actually liked me commenting about your photography and falling in love with Isis’ eyes; she is still the most beautiful wolf-hybrid I have ever seen, and I wish I could have met her.

These past few years have been wonderful; “wonderful” which in and of itself cannot describe how the time has been. I have never been so happy. With you I feel safe, I feel whole. I know that I do not “need you” in my life, but my life is so much better because you are a part of it. You are my best friend and I know I can trust you and rely on you; that you will support me in my crazy, busy life, and that you won’t begrudge me for remaining independent. I think that is why we work so well; we are partners and we are friends, but we also are still our own people. We have a life together, and we have remained whole people.

I know that I often say “Thank you for putting up with my crazy,” but I really mean it. Not many people would stand by a depressed/manic/bi-polar basket case when they have an “out.” But you have stayed through the dark times, and have helped me manage to find a way back every time I start to fall.

And I want you to know, when I tell you about my student’s or parent’s comments about “when are you going to get married?” or “— would be a great wedding gift,” I am not trying to pressure you. I am happy the way we are – I just find it funny that others want us to so much. I hope you know that a little piece of paper and a lot of headaches with family and friends does not change one thing about us. I am here for the long-haul.

I love you. You make me lizard happy.

Love,
~Me