To No Longer Be

Every night
I watch spiders
Feed on their prey
Trapped and free
Unable to see
Destroying myself with hate
As I cannot reach the gate
Scared of my fate

Everything is a lie
Truth is a deception
A reflected perception
Tools are used
To repair your brain
To believe what they say
And when you are in your grave
The lies become truth
And truth becomes lies

We’re all copies of imitations
Trying to be individuals
Struggling against ourselves
Is what they designed
To confuse your mind
As you live in the cage
And a slave to what they say

The wounds of love
And the holes in my heart
Curse my soul
As I continuously bleed
Tied to hell
I’m under the spell
Rotting and pondering
And I cannot pretend to be
It goes against me
As I no longer
Want to be