I’m just a Poet

I’m tired of the scars
I inflict upon myself
I’m tired of bleeding
My blood for free
I have the power to end everything

I just want to
Put my eyes to rest
I want the feelings
I used to feel
Before depression
Concealed my heart
I long to breathe and love
But the stars
Are vacant when I look above

I can’t sleep
When the horrors plague my mind
The past is forced
In my head
As I live it
Over and over again
There no fucking peace
To be had

I just want to live again
Is that too much
To ask for God
Or are you too busy
As you kick me aside
To focus on your
Apocalyptic plans

It’s okay
I’m just a poet
Suffocating in my own shadow
I’m just a poet
Drowning in shame and sorrow
It’s okay
Someday I won’t be here
And you’ll have to decipher
What I wrote
As my secrets disappear
And I vanish
Becoming part of the air

The Nerve!

:*( This part kicked my ass:

I want the feelings
I used to feel
Before depression

1 reply

December 5, 2019

@thenerve

I’ve succeeded in doing that, and I am hoping that everything I do gives life to the people that used to feel the way I did. Stick around and conquer depression 😉

Jodie

I think at one point or another we all feel like this…..I know I have felt like this more then once….

3 replies

@jaythesmartone

Which makes it great cause you can relate. I believe that it helps that to know that I wasn’t the only one. Back in the day like in the early 2000s when I started on the OD, I thought everyone was happy except for me. People liked my poetry and then, I exploded with people reading everything that I couldn’t even keep up. I probably could have kept up, but I was just blown away that like a thousand people on there were reading me, if not more. Knowing that I wasn’t the only one really help push through and take control. I hope what everyone did for me, I can do for them with my poetry or novel or any other direction that I go. It is time to end sadness and reproduce bliss.

@raphaeltiriel

Question? What did the people for “poetry In transit” say to you? Are they interested?

And you are right…being mad and pissed off because one has gotten the short end of the stick in life there is so much good that can come out of it……keep on writing and telling your stories because I for one really enjoy how you express yourself.

December 7, 2019

I never heard anything back.

Thanks! For a long time, I kept everything inside. Eventually, it all comes out.