Lost Soul?

A phrase that I once heard vibrates throughout my mind everyday now.

‘You are known by the company that you keep.’

But at the same time, a lot can be said about the person that you are by the company that you keep. But what if the person keeps company with all sorts of different people? What if the person is not the same as the company that they keep?

I ask because I keep all sorts of company. I know so many different people that it is often hard for me to walk into a store, buy what I want/need and leave without it being an adventure. I know criminals, politicians, lawyers, Christians, JW’s, Mormons, Bankers, Insurance Brokers, cooks, servers, big box retail managers, small business owners and the wealthy. But I am not the same as these people. Sure I may have some of the same attributes but I am not one of them.

Does the mean that because I keep company with them that I am know in certain cirlces as being them?

I have spent that last few weeks pondering the meaning of my life. The reason(s) that I am here. What is my purpose for being alive? For awhile I thought I had found it. I found her.

Or was it She that found me? After all, it was She that started working in my place of employment. It was She that had gotten mad because I used to talk about Bird a lot. It was She that told me straight out that she was starting to have feelings for me. The night my entire world had changed. For the better….or so I had thought. It was She that wanted to go away for the Thanksgiving Weekend in 2007.

So did I find her or did She find me?

If so, if She found me, what did She find?

That answer is a simple one. A far too simple one.

She found a lost soul.

~Only in darkness can true light shine through.~
Rand al’Mawer, 2008