Faith

Right now all I really want is some time. Some time to ponder the roads that my life have taken. The new trails that have openned up to me. I want time.

I had to make a choice a few weeks back, and the choice that I chose, the choice that I picked resulted with me internetless for a few weeks. But it also provided me in the means to make a Janurary trip happen.

You have to now prove to me that what you said, is not in fact what you want.

i have to prove this how? like i havent already?? i can pour my heart to you more and for what? so you can say you want more time? rand, you had your time hun. you made a choice remember. you said so in this entry. you left me in the dark. out of nowhere you disappeared on me. and expected me to understand. u know i love you. so how else do u want me to prove it to u? i love you rand isabel

and i know i might sound a bit negative, but im hurt too. im sorry ok. i love you. thats all i can think of saying to fix this.

nope …. not all the story is out for all to see…. you have more to prove then she.

Speed Bumps

October 24, 2004

So how was your trip? How is everything now? Did everything work out?

hey… i want to know those answers too!! hmm… i wonder if he’ll tell. i wonder. or does he need more time. *giggles* just kidding. i love u my mean head rand. =Op isabel

I just can’t actually write anything because she’s on my diary thingy. She reads it. (A)

Speed Bumps

October 25, 2004

Started a diary where I could actually say what I needed to about this weekend, ( ThroughTears ). If there’s something I can’t write about because I see her every day, I’ll be writing it in there.

>_< u are on the net! u just noted that alika chic. figures. and here i thought otherwise. so ur just making me wait it out. so evil of you. fine… ill wait. sit and wait. EVIL MEAN HEAD RAND!!! you exasperate me!! ur lucky i love you. isabel

im still waiting on you babe. any day you feel lucky… *wink*… can you just put me out of my torment and say you love me too. you know you do. i love you rand al’mawer. isabel

Auryn of the Faeries

October 29, 2004

Hey, Just wanted to tell you this… Don’t give up on her. This may sound weird coming from a stranger…but I’ve read the past few entries and have this strange feeling that you guys were meant to be together. ~Auryn~

ryn: true, but i dont know if i would want to have ur kid. =Op just kidding. well i hope all is well with you. i miss you alot. isabel

hey mean head! *lolz* no worries babe, hes being good. extra good in fact. love ya! ur lil miss… isabel

strangely liberating

November 21, 2004

ryn: yes.. very awesome.

UPDATE ALREADY!!! WHATS A GIRL GOTTA DO TO GET YOU TO UPDATE? PLEASE? xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo isabel

i miss you.

ok… but only cuz i love you. ur lil miss (btw, i would still like to contend that i am 5.7 and therefore i am not lil) =Op

long time. don’t know what you’ve been upto but here’s hoping all’s good with you! 🙂

i cant believe you left a note in my friends diary. honestly. *shakes head in shame* he wasnt talking about you, silly. im guessing youre mad at me, considering what i wrote. i cant help it. it feels weird and thats how I FEEL. btw, please ignore heathen’s recent entry. its not true. hes just my friend who i talk to. curious, is this how you act when you get jealous? just wondering. isabel