A Time of Past.

 She was a girl that I met when I was 19. I have always felt strongly towards her.

Tonight I went out for some drinks with some friends. She was there, with her boyfriend, at another table. I sat down with them, just to say hi. 

We talked. Her boyfriend went to get her another beer. Alone at the table we talked some more.

"it’s good to see you happy like this. It’s been a long time since I saw it last" I said to her. She looked at me and replied with, "you’ve never seen me like this."

"Yes I did. Once. It was a few years back. It was on a Sunday actually."

"When you kissed me?" she looked right into my eyes as she asked me.

"Yes, when I kissed you. You kissed me back." I started to feel a little defensive about it.

"Did you like it when I kissed you?" her question caught me off guard as I stumbled over my reply of yes I did.

"Did you like it when I kissed you?" I countered after I was able to focus once more.

"Yes."

Her boyfriend returned to the table, my mind raced in so many different directions. I wanted to ask her why we never were more than just friends. Instead, I will go to sleep with a ‘what if’ and not a ‘difinitive’ answer.

~The truth is, I’m scared to death of just being friends with you, cause I know I’ll always want more.~ anonymous.