Sucks . . .

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One Day at a Time

This cold sucks ass in the worst possible way. I really have been sick since Sunday night when the cough started, but it was just the beginning of my symptoms so I suffered through work on Monday and Tuesday just thinking it was mostly fatigue and lack of sleep, had Wednesday and Thursday off already. Now it’s Friday and I’ve called in. I will probably call in tomorrow as well and SURELY I will feel like going back on Sunday at 1PM. That’s 48 hours away. I really wouldn’t want to have to miss Sunday as well. Not only is that a full shift of pay I’m missing (Saturday is a short shift), but due to the strange circumstances surrounding the schedule change (or lack of change in the computer system-see my discussion in previous entry) I don’t want to miss Sunday lest they screw up and accuse me of missing more than 3 days in a row IF they count Thursday (a Leave of Absence is required for more than three days absent). Although I am sure I’m worried for nothing. I mean, Larry will vouch for the schedule change, and I’m not the only one affected, there are one or two others. We can’t all be penalized, right? That’s their problem/mistake, not mine. So I shouldn’t worry about it, just take my three days off, through Sunday, if I need it.

My cough sometimes seems to be improving (judging by symptoms throughout the night and through this morning), but I still feel like absolute crap. No fever, but light muscle aches and just blah. Various forms of headache from ears, to eyes, to sinuses, to even toothache (I figure the inflammation in my head due to being sick is probably exacerbating otherwise mostly innocuous things like some teeth I need to get cavities filled on (I have gotten much dental work done but there’s more to get done). Despite the symptoms and waking frequently, I have still gotten quite a good bit of sleep the last three nights/days, since I tend to go right back to sleep even when waking . . . also have had the opportunity to nap during the day as well. I think I’m just about caught up on sleep now and if I weren’t sick I’d be feeling great.

I’m out of coke. This sucks. I don’t feel like going out to get any and my parents probably wouldn’t do it for me either (they would give me some line about how I don’t need those sugary carbonated beverages anyway but especially not when I’m sick). You just don’t understand how I am addicted to Coke. And I can’t stand Pepsi, Root Beer, Sprite, or any of that other garbage, it’s not the same (although Dr. Pepper is an occasional suitable substitute, just to change it up a bit). There’s something about Coca Cola, and it has to be the high fructose corn syrup-caffeine kind, not the nasty throwback stuff with real sugar, not the caffeine free, the diet, the coke zero, etc. It has to be the "real thing", LOL. Oh well, will have to drink sweet tea and water, I guess. I’ve got about one and a half cans of Grizzly left (for some reason I was stocked up), so that should last through tomorrow at least. Lord knows, I’ve got to get off of that shit, but now is not the time . . . try nicotine withdrawal AND being sick, eh?

Yesterday was bad . . . I was very much the hermit, stuck in my room, about 5 days worth of facial hair growth showing and feeling nasty. I just decided no matter how bad I felt I was determined to get a good shower and shave. So I did, yesterday evening. I felt better afterward, and I also actually had an appetite for dinner which was great . . . chicken tenders, broccoli casserole (I love this stuff, don’t understand why people don’t like broccoli), rolls smothered with real butter. So these little things (appetite, less coughing, getting up the energy to get cleaned up) tell me that perhaps I’m starting to turn the corner. Just wish it would happen faster though. Not that I just relish the thought of going back to work. But honestly, I want to be well, I want to feel good

It’s past noon today now. I got up around 6AM, waited until 7AM to call into work. Then I was back asleep by 8AM and slept until noon. Right now I’m just trying to take it easy. Should probably eat something before too long. I must be getting about 1500 calories a day max, which isn’t enough.

-AR

 

 

 

 

 

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