you know when

You can tell someone is not coping well. When they become bitchy and moody, unable to focus, appetite fluctuates, they sleep more and have less quality sleep. Yeah, that’s me.

I thought I was ready, or at least as ready as I could be. But yesterday was the 1 week mark. He leaves on Monday. I have this weekend with him and that’s it!

Now comes the praying. The praying that he’ll be okay. The praying that 7 months is enough time to build a relationship that will outlast (when last I was informed) a possible 18 month tour.

I don’t know. I am so …. out of it right now. I feel like crying every 5 minutes but then other times I’m ok. Is that normal?

Caleb’s deployment was different. He’s my best friend and one time lover. But I was never in love with him. I worried about him, yes, but it was different.

Is it normal to feel sorta bi-polar when your soldier is preparing for deployment?