what just happend?

So I’m really excited.  We are doing Big/little reveal tonight.  I have dinner plans with my friend Mega and my gbig at 6, then I’ll set up and clean and get ready for our ceremony at 8.  Then at 10 we have the Big/little sleepover which should be fun.  I hope it is at least.  I’m SOOOOO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!!!!!!  I’ve been uber hyper all day about this.

And somehow I’m back with Hunter.  *ducks for cover*

But I’m not with him, with him.  We are talking again and we still both feel very strongly about each other and want to be together.  We both recognize that we have some problems to work through but the fact that we both want to work through them I think says a lot.  So we are taking it slowly and I mean slowly.  I saw him Tuesday, I haven’t seen him since although we have still be talking a bit.  We are thinking of going on a date this weekend.  Obviously not tonight though.  I’m not sure how it all really happened either.

I have been slowly working on getting ‘over’ him but I’m one of those people who can’t really move on until I have answers.  And I didn’t have any but I desperately wanted them.  So really late one night I texted him asking if it would be possible for us to talk.  We texted back and forth and we arranged to hang out.  So we did.  We discussed what had happened.  A lot of our problem is communication.  I don’t really communicate very well I guess and he likes to be serious when he communicates which I hate.  But we agreed to work on things and see where they go.  Not sure what will happen next but apparently he is talking about it to other people and seems very positive about it which is always a good sign.

As for the rest of my life.  My job search could be put on hold, temporarily.  My aunt has invited me to come down and live with her/work for her for a few months right after graduation.  It’s kind of a long and complicated story but we’ll just sum it up to that she has a lot of people she is responsible for and right now that is making her get behind on her work.  So she offered to pay me $100/week to come live with her for about 3 months right after graduation and just help her take care of the pets, the people, the housework.  It would be like being a live-in companion or nurse.  I’d help with housework, yardwork, take them to doctor’s appointments, babysit, pet-sit, cook, etc.  It is actually a pretty sweet deal since I’d be getting free room and board and my food would mostly just be whatever they bought grocerywise, unless I wanted something special.  I’d basically be living in Florida from early/mid-May until some time in August.   I’m seriously considering it for several reasons. 1) It would be a guaranteed job for at least 3 months right out of school.  2) It’s in Florida. 3) It would give me some more time to decide what I want to do with my life.

Of course this all depends on how the rest of my life goes this semester.  For all I know I could be offered a job somewhere else.  Or Hunter could ask me to move with him.  He’s been offered a job but he’d have to leave the state.  He doesn’t know exactly where yet.  He’d be a manager right off the bat.  But that’s the cart way before the horse but I’m just saying.  Stranger things have happened.  And graduation is still 3 months away and by that point Hunter and I would have technically been together for about 7 months.  Technically!  But I realize it’s not something that is likely to happen.  It would be really awesome though.  I know I’m probably coming off as weird or psycho by saying that but you guys just don’t understand how I feel when I’m with him…it’s hard to explain.  *sigh*   It’s so differenet and new that I don’t really understand it myself.  But the sad thing is I think I’m falling in love with him.  And right now I don’t know if that will be a good thing or a bad thing.  And I hate that.

~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~