weekend recap

Today has been a very trying day so forgive me if my entry starts to wander.  Let’s see if we can’t do a somewhat orderly recap since our last visit.

Work was fine this week.  Tedious and rather busy with a few moments of WTF-ness but otherwise things went fairly smoothly.  I was extremely glad for Friday though and particularly for Friday night.  

Isaac visited me at the pharmacy.  I picked him up after I got off and we went out to the Quaker Steak & Lube.  I’d never been before.  It was pretty good actually.  The fries were overly salty though.  It was a friend’s birthday so we hung around and had a good time for a while.  We called it a night fairly early though and went to bed.

I woke up at the butt-crack of dawn on Saturday.  I have the very annoying habit of not being able to sleep before a big event.  Like the day of graduation, I was up super early.  Christmas, get up super early.  The day we go to Busch Gardens during vacation I’ll probably get up super early too.  LOL  So anyway, I was up super early, about an hour later Isaac woke up.  We ran a few errands before Kay and her boyfriend came to get us from my house.  We took his car instead of the Queen Bee only because Queen Bee is a 2-door.  Climbing 4 grown adults in and out of her all day would probably not have been much fun.  And we were climbing in and out quite often during the day.  We got to the ren fair a little bit after they opened.  It was SOO SSOOOO much fun.  I uploaded a bunch of pictures to my FB and my Flickr if you are lucky enough to have those, go and look.  Some of them turned out pretty nicely if I do say so myself.  We didn’t do garb (Kay & I that is) because neither of the boys had garb.  That has changed.  Isaac bought a shirt and doublet while we were there and he already had tights (I didn’t ask, really I don’t want to know, probably part of a halloween costume).  So when he comes back we might all dress in garb for the fair (depending on when he comes back and how long he’s home for).  We have also heard rumbling that the fair in PA is very good so we’re going to look into go up to PA as a weekend road trip…not sure when obviously.  We’ll see.  So that was the fair.  I got a bit of sunburn but not a huge deal.  We got back into town early Saturday evening and were supposed to meet Lexie for dinner at Grady’s.  She was a no-show.  She didn’t even bother to fucking call and say she wasn’t going to come out.  I’m so stupid for thinking she had changed.  She’s always been a selfish flake but I felt like such an ass that I made Isaac and Kay and her boyfriend sit there while we waited.  We all kept looking at the door, waiting for her to walk in.  We ate dinner.  Isaac was kind of pissed at her for standing me up.  We ended up all of us in the hot tub just sort of relaxing and talking.  After a day of walking around all day up-hill and down, I think we all needed the soak.

Sunday Isaac and I slept in a bit.  We went to get breakfast/lunch but every place was packed so we decided against it and I just took him home so he could pack and clean and run errands.  We made plans to go to see "Thor" later in the evening.  I went to the store and got stuff to cook for dinner (a mother’s day gift) as well as a little brownie-cake thing.  Kay and I went shopping, dragging her boyfriend along too.  It was fun.  I got a few pairs of underwear.  I hadn’t planned to buy anything but I did sort of need new underwear and it was a pretty darn good sale too.  So we finished, I went home, made dinner, relaxed.  It rolled around to 7pm and I texted Isaac to see if he’d decided what movie showing to go to.  He said he and his brothers had decided to go just the three of them.  I was livid.  He broke plans with me to go to see the same damned movie that we had planned on seeing.  Apparently it had started that the whole family was going to go and then when it got to a later showing, it would just be the boys and then he remembered that he’d made plans with me but by then I was pissed at him. I mean, I was ready to drive over there just to throw something at him I was so angry.  I was actually cursing in text and I hate cursing via text.  He called me.  I ignored his calls, all 3 of them, before he finally left me a voicemail trying to apologize and explain.  I called him back and told him again how upset I was with him and that honestly, I wasn’t sure I even wanted to see him after that stunt.  He swore he was sorry, apologized a million times and promised that he would make it up to me if I just came to the movie with him and his brothers.  I fussed, I fussed, I was still hurt and angry but I caved eventually, after all he’s getting ready to leave.  I got there and he is outside waiting for me.  We talk.  He apologizes, I’m still pissed, we talk some more.  I start forgiving him a little.  He is under a lot of stress right now and I know that.  Then he does what I’ve been waiting, dying, PRAYING that he would do.  He looks at me and says "I’m sorry I hurt you.  I do love you but I’m scared of it".  I don’t say it back but I hug him and things are mostly alright.  He continues to try and make nice with him and I forgive him.  We head back to his house for a few minutes.  We say our goodbyes, we say a real "I love you" to each other, I cry.  I’m still crying.  It’s kind of making my head hurt.

I have custody of the bamboo I gave him for Christmas.  I  thought about letting his family have it to take care of.  I’m sure they would if he told them about the poor thing, but I’m also 99% sure that by the time he goes to leave tomorrow he’d have forgotten all about the poor bamboo and it’d be dead before anyone realized it was a real bamboo and not some fakey decoration.  So I have ‘the love fern’ lol. 

We still didn’t take a good picture of us together to have but he’ll be back for 4 days at the ‘end’ of AT before he actually ships out and we’ll do it then.  

Okay.   It’s almost 2am and I work tomorrow at noon until 8pm (I think, there were some last minute schedule changes so I’m not 100% sure about tomorrow’s hours but that seems really familiar).  My head hurts and I already miss him.  

Goodnight guys.