waiting for a Me day

I know I promised updating.  I have yet to have any real "me time" to do it.  Between the new …. boyfriend?  it still feels weird to say that.  Ok, well between the new boyfriend, the friends, the family, and the job…I’ve been dying.  Holidays.  They all want my time and none of them are really willing to share.  Yesterday was Twin 2 and Kay and me for most of the day then the guys that night, we went to a RAW house show in the city and that took up most of the day (from 5pm until about 11pm) after which I had the beau asking me to stop by and meet two of his close friends.

Then this morning was Auntie time, a bit of shopping, then got my brother and we all went to see War Horse (which was PHENOMENAL by the way!!!)  Now I’m waiting for the beau to arrive, preferably before I get it into my head to run away.  We’re supposed to have family dinner at 6 and he’s meeting my family (the other family dinner I mentioned ended up falling through).  

All I want to do is run away from home for a while and be alone.

I’m feeling overwhelmed and ready to scream and I can’t.  I have to keep swallowing the screams and the tears and all of it.  Just so no one else gets upset, so no one’s feelings get hurt.  I’m getting frustrated.  If I don’t take some time to myself to release and relax and calm down I’m going to end up saying or doing something stupid.

Oh well.  I guess I’ll go and clean for a bit.  Nothing better to do right now but wait around twiddling my thumbs and I’ve never been the kind for that.