trepidation

So I’m doing ok right now.  But I’m rather nervous suddenly.  I remembered something that Hunter and I talked about when we were first tossing around the idea of going out.  And it has come back to bother me some more since we had our talk over the break.  He once said he couldn’t see himself marrying me (yes I know, hold the ‘boos’) and that was part of why he didn’t want to date me.  Now I have to find out if that’s still how he feels or if he’s changed his mind on that too.  Because to be honest, if he hasn’t changed his mind to even be open to the possibility then I would be wasting my time and putting myself in the position to get hurt.  It’s not that I don’t like him, I do, I really do.  And that’s the problem.  I care too much about him to put myself in a position to be hurt by him if he just can’t be with me.  

Crap.

Life is too complicated.

~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~