tomorrow

June ends tomorrow. My 1 year subscription for OD ends tomorrow. Don’t think I’ll renew it by tomorrow. Have I mentioned lately that I hate bills? Because I really do. I hate them because they keep me from the things that I enjoy. I love the chapters set-up, probably my single favorite feature of being an OD+ member. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy other parts of it too but that is my favorite. And yes, I will be renewing, as soon as I have the money too. I might go ahead and put up the money for an extra month until I have the money for the full year again, whenever that will be.

Have I mentioned the unexpected $70.25 I now I have to pay? For the state board test for the pharmacy. The test that my job is making me take in order to keep my job. Yeah, I have to pay for it out of my own pocket even though they make me take it. No, I don’t get reimbursed for it. Yup, it’s a shite, I am aware, I am pissed. But there isn’t much I can do about it. And of course I have a month to take the stupid test (at the outside max) for all my paperwork and I feel like I don’t know any of the stuff that might be on it and of course no one has taken it recently so they can’t tell me what I should study other than the state laws although they can’t point me in the direction of which ones might show up on the test. It’s a disaster and it’s playing havoc on my panic disorder, trust me.

Other than that little bit of stress, things are the norm. I’ve been working a little bit more the last few weeks. I’m still getting less than 20 hours from either job and therefore less than 40 hours a week between the two total. I have one ‘day off’ this week. I put it in ‘ ‘ because I work strange shifts where I am off half the day but then work for 6-8 hours at the end or beginning of the day, like today, I work 4-10pm so I have all the day up until about 3:30pm (when I have to leave for work) but then I won’t be home until 10:30pm or so and that’s so late in the day I can’t really accomplish much. I have 6 days like that this week. Only one day where I don’t work at all so I can really accomplish some stuff the whole day as opposed to having to watch the clock, like I am now. *sigh*

I will be 25 in less than a month now. Oy. I am not okay with that fact. 25 and I haven’t accomplished much. Sure I have a bachelor’s and an associates. But what else do I have? I have no significant other, I still live at home (again freaking bills!), I barely have a social life, I don’t have a full-time job or health benefits. *sigh again* Yeah 25 is pretty much going to be a giant depressing year.

Okay, time to shower and then run to the library and grab some food before work.