the weekend came & went so fast

 
This is the rose that Quinn gave me for Valentine’s Day.  It isn’t much but the way he gave it to me made up for it.  We went to Walmart Saturday and he got a bunch of roses and little $1 boxes of chocolates for some of the girls he knows (I’ve met them they’re sweet kids, some freshman.)  I didn’t pay much attention to this because he’d made mention already of having to come back and get my Valentine later without me.  Turns out one of the roses was for me.  No chocolates though but that’s because I actually don’t like the boxes of chocolates that get sold at Valentine’s because I don’t eat half of them, they are terrible flavors. =  He paid attention to the fact that I don’t like boxes of chocolates, something my own mother still doesn’t get after 24 years! lol  But we spent Saturday with some friends and we got back to his place and we were laying down watching TV and he came in with the rose, leaned over me in bed, put it across my chest and whispered Happy Valentine’s Day.

We only said I love you once this weekend and it was as I was leaving this morning.  I was terrified to say it after the fight last weekend, afraid that he wouldn’t say it back, afraid that he’d do something worse like ‘I know’ or (oh gawd) ‘Okay’.  So I spent the weekend biting my tongue to keep from saying it all the times I would have normally said it, stopping myself from bringing it up in conversation, not asking him to talk to me for the millionth time about his feelings.  Finally we were getting ready to leave and I walked up to him and said it.  He looked down at me, put his fingertips on either side of my face and said "I love you too".  He said it like I was silly for having sounded so afraid, and I know I did, I probably sounded so heartbroken and timid when I said it, all the doubting and wondering obvious in my voice.  He said "I love you too" like I was silly to have doubts, silly to sound so afraid, silly to have waited until the end of our great weekend to have the nerve to say what I wanted.

That’s my weekend in a nutshell.  Not much else happened.  A lot of hanging out mostly plus a bit of sex.  A very ordinary weekend all in all and I’m glad for it. 

Now it’s back to the grind.  Spent today trying to run errands and that was a nightmare with the snow/rain starting to come down.  Tried to get scripts filled and got the run-around.  Was frustrated as hell by traffic and people who can’t seem to figure out that green lights mean go, the gas is on the right and you don’t have to stop every 5 minutes just because there is stuff falling from the sky.  Jeez, it’s precipitation not nukes, stop freaking out about it.  Ugh.
 

Xx