the silence deafens me

Hunter is completely out of the picture.  We had another fight and he said maybe it was better if we didn’t hang out.  I think he’s just scared of how he feels about me and that fact that if he sees me he wants me.  So instead he’s running away from it.  But it’s whatever, I’m trying not to let it bother me.  And it hasn’t been easy, let me tell you.  My life is full of drama as usual.  Girl-fights in the cult, girl-fights outside the cult, broke my phone, getting stressed, getting housework done, attempting to prepare for May and then for September after that and some apparent random beach trip in between with my family.  We’re going to pref littles this week.  I’m super excited about that.  We got some amazing girls this semester and I’d be proud to call any of them my little.  And amazingly, I only have 3 events for the cult this week.  Our weekly meeting, the pref meeting and Greek basketball.  I have a commitee  meeting too but it’s with my Big and it won’t take long I’m sure.  All we’ll be doing is going around campus hanging flyers to advertise our open house on the 10th.

I still can’t believe my phone broke.  That kind of annoys me…ok, it REALLY annoys me but I can’t do anything about it now.  I already called the company and I am supposed to get a new phone.  In 5 business days was the quote I got on Tuesday.  So hopefully Monday will see me with a phone that freaking works!  I don’t really want to do anything else right now.  I want to go back to bed.

I’ve been sleeping a lot and even after sleeping for hours I still feel tired.  I think I’m depressed.  But I’m dealing with it I guess.  I am up and I’m doing what I have to do.  And that’s really all I can do.

~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~