silence

Over a week since I issued the ultimatum, throwing down the proverbial gauntlet.  No response.  He’s been on Facebook to say he’s officially overseas, he’s updated pictures…no time to respond to me?  Bullshit.  More like to cowardly.  Everyone keeps saying to take his silence as tacit agreement and to just let it go.  I can’t.  I can’t just let it go.  I want answers, I deserve an answer.  He could have the courtesy at least for that much, to say yes or no.  A simple one word answer, not fucking hard.    Instead, I get nothing.

Officially, my heart is done.  I’m taking the pieces and putting them in the vault and then I’m locking the key IN the vault with the pieces so that way there is NO chance of someone else getting their grubby pathetic hands on it.  No fucking way.  I’m done putting myself through this shit.  

I obviously expect too much from guys in this world, in this day and age.  They’re useless pathetic ball-less excuses for the male sex.  They don’t make them like they used to that’s for damned sure.  Where are the men with integrity?  The men with class?  The men who knew how the hell to be a man?  Man-up.  For pete’s sake.  Just fucking man up.  Your relationship is failing and it’s your fault, own up to it.  Don’t run from it, be kind enough to end it.  Spare the poor female a lot of heartache and just end it.  Don’t drag it out.  At least be man enough to talk to her.  For all you know, you’re being a pussy and overreacting to something stupid that isn’t really there.

Like Isaac and his insistent need to think I’m rushing our relationship.  Rushing it to what?  I’m your girlfriend, that’s it, fucking be a man and treat me with some respect and caring, like your girlfriend.  I don’t ask for a ring, I don’t want your fucking ring to be honest.  I want my boyfriend back, the guy who was a dork but still swept me off my feet when I wasn’t looking to ever love someone again.  I want that guy back.  The guy who made me laugh, he made me feel special.  

Shit, if this is how he treats people, no wonder he’s fucking divorced.