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I haven’t written in almost a week.  That used to be highly unusual for me, then college and it wasn’t so unusual; lately it’s become an unusual thing again.  Ah, cycles, gotta love them.

Let’s see.  What’s happened lately…

I have hours at the store this weekend but it won’t save me.  I’m still going to have to take an extension on my car payment for May.  To me, it’s a failure (yes, I understand it isn’t because really, it’s not my fault that hours got cut and there was a holiday, blah blah blah) and I don’t deal well with failure of any kind.  Failing on something that, let’s be honest, is kind of a big thing, makes it an even bigger deal.  Second to a house, a car is just about the biggest purchase you can make as an adult.  The fact that I’m going to have to skip my 3rd payment on it…it bothers the heck out of me.  Isaac and I had a bit of a spat the night that I realized and was coming to terms with that fact.  It wasn’t much and we recovered as quickly as always.

Speaking of Isaac, yeah, I’m still working through how I feel about his leaving.  Thankfully AT is still state-side and 3 weeks.  He will have his phone for that 3 weeks even if he can’t talk much, knowing he has it so that I can ‘talk’ to him at least if I need to makes me feel a bit better.  I know it’s kind of putting off the inevitable and he will be leaving after that but still.  I’m working through it one day at a time.  We celebrated our 7 month mark last night.  Dinner and sex, it was nice.  

Work has been a little better.  I have hours at the store this weekend, I’ve kept mostly steady hours at the pharmacy and picked up an extra shift on Easter so I had 6 more hours, plus paid holiday, plus time and a half for Sunday so next week should be a pretty decent paycheck.  Which is VERY good.  

Kay and her boyfriend are confirmed for coming up next weekend and we will be going to the Ren Fest a few miles outside of town, all four of us.  I’m excited!  It’s his last weekend here that we know of for a while and he’ll be off.  I’m off Saturday and probably working Sunday since I’ve whined about not getting hours lol.  I’m quite okay with that so long as I still get off the days that I request off.  Plus, 2 of the days I’ve requested off at the store for the summer I’m not actually off, I’ll be working the pharmacy instead of the store so it doesn’t really count.  I don’t know what we’ll end up doing after Saturday but I’m SUPER excited for that weekend because I fully intend to make the most of the Fest and spending time with 2 of my closest dears.

No we still have not said the L word.  I’m not that worried about it right now.  There’s still time.  The right time will come and I’m hopeful that I’ll know when that is.  In the meanwhile, I’m pretty sure of my place in his life.  He said yesterday that he wanted to make sure that felt loved (since it was our anniversary) and he was talking about back-rubs and dinner and all this other stuff that was quasi-sweet and romantic.  *happy sigh*  It makes me feel better about us not having said it yet.

I can’t believe my birthday is coming up soon too!  Only 3 more months.  And he won’t be here.  *sad face*  We have talked about that and how it does sort of make me sad since I may not get any card that he sends me or I might not get it on/by my birthday and he can’t even guarantee a phone call for him to tell me happy birthday either.  He says he already knows what he’s getting me, it’s a surprise and a secret and I hate secrets and surprises lol.  I don’t know what I want though.  And us talking about it makes me realize that I have no idea what I want for my birthday.  I’d like an Xbox live gold membership for the year so I can keep using Netflix and all that but I don’t want to wait until July for it.  So I may try to save up $60 and buy it direct from Xbox live.  Other than that I haven’t really be making jewelry or painting much but that most likely will change once he leaves and I need things to do.  I’m still working on all my ebooks so maybe Borders or Amazon gift cards.  I do want to get seat covers and a steering wheel cover too but eh.  I found one I like but it’s not very…accessible?  It only has the bucket seat covers and a steering wheel cover.  No floor mats or anything like that.  It’s black with almost peacock feathers pattern (http://www.amazon.com/Peacock-Bucket-Covers-Steering-Wheel/dp/B004OEOOV4/ref=sr_1_7?ie=UTF8&s=automotive&qid=1304043020&sr=8-7)  But I really want something that I can actually make match other things, like floor mats or even stickers/clings for the car.  But with a yellow car I want it to also work with the car’s color.

Oh well.  I’m tired and I have "Dante’s Inferno" calling my name again and since I don’t work until 4pm tomorrow I get to sleep in which means I can stay up late playing tonight.  YAY!!!

(Yes I am in fact a gamer, something that I don’t think Isaac realized until he tried to help me play "Assassins Creed" the other night and I snapped at him.  LOL)