new OD & other random stuff
So OD updated. I’m ambivalent still about it. The top-links seem like throwback to a style they used previously (the whole drop down menu thing) but I really like the idea of the Friends vs Bookmarks thing. I also glanced at some of the maintenance features. They seem pretty cool. You can actually preview your changes before you save, and I mean like full-out preview. It’s pretty sweet. I’ll have to see how it goes for a week or so before I call verdict on it though.
As for Hunter, well….it’s still complicated. We sat down and talked the other day. We are going to work on being just friends for a while. Since our friendship definitely seems to be thing that needs the most work. He says sometimes it’s hard for him to differentiate between whether he wants me or he needs me. (Want in this case meaning he wants my companionship and need meaning sex). And that is painfully obvious every time we hang out. So we were talking and as I was getting ready to leave he said something and my response was "Eventually I’m going to get over you and I’m going to move on. I’ll date other guys. Maybe while you’re considering all these ‘complications’ as you call them, you should think about that, whether or not you’re going to be ok watching me be happy with someone else." For now, we’ll see. I’m ok at the moment because I’ve had time to deal with most of this stuff already. Now I’m just…I don’t know. I care about him a lot but I’m not stupid either. If he can’t just pick something and stick with it, if he can’t feel about me the way I feel about him then I can’t do anything about it. And I know that eventually I’ll find someone who can and will treat me well, someone who will be glad to stand beside me.
On happier notes, I absolutely love my little. She’s amazing. She has brought me a flower almost every time we’ve gone somewhere. I don’t mean she bought a flower either because that would be a bit much. No, she picks one off of this bush/tree thing by her building on her way and then goes to great lengths to hide it until I am right next to her and then she just holds it out all sweet and cute. Which is exactly the kind of flowers I like to get. The kind that are more about thought than pricetag. 
I’m so glad she’s my little. I wish I could post a pic of her and I on here but that would be too personal and my philosophy is it’s ok to violate my own privacy but not others. So I won’t.
We went to the memorial tournament on Saturday and I’m the only person I know of who can manage to get a sunburn in 30 degree February weather. Thankfully it wasn’t a bad one, just embarrassing because it was outlining my sunglasses. Hehe. And while we were there I noticed this really cute rugby guy. Well my little said something to him later that day (she knows both the rugby teams). It turns out that the guy is actually in one of my classes but he sits in the back of the room so I had never noticed him before. Then today I was up in the front of the room talking to the class and I saw him and I about died. I was so embarrassed. Not that he knows who I am or anything. Little just said that ‘one of her friends’ thought he was gorgeous. But still. I am always hanging out with her, I am in his class…if I had half a brain I could probably put 2 and 2 together to get 4 at that point. 
~*~*~Blessed Be~*~*~
