my oh my

"…Hold on baby, you’re losing it.  The water’s high, you’re jumping into it and letting go and no one knows.  That you cry but you don’t tell anyone that you might not be the golden one.  And you’re tied together with a smile but you’re coming undone…" Tied Together With a Smile by Taylor Swift

Today was a bad day.  I couldn’t freaking shake this funk I’m in.  Quinn and I got into a fight last night and kept fighting this morning.  We’ve barely talked and I’m about to say screw it and go to bed now instead of waiting for him to get home.  Then I felt like a total jerk when I was talking to our friend Jean about the fight and then she drops this bombshell about having left school.  She hadn’t told me before and then she was like "well we don’t talk as much since I moved here" and then I felt like I was a lousy friend all over again.  I’ve just been feeling so low all day and I haven’t been able to shake it.  Tomorrow I’m going down to Uni in the afternoon.  Hopefully that will help to shake the funk since I’ll get to see a lot of my friends as well as Quinn.

So for now I’m just trying to keep myself together.  I have to work in the morning but only for a few hours.  Then I’ll come home, finish packing, switch cars, get some food then head down.  It’ll be nice to get to see everyone again.  I didn’t get to see anyone over break and it sucked but now I’ll get to see them.  It’s going to suck that I don’t have any money to really enjoy the trip but just getting to go down there will be nice.  I hope.  Cross your fingers for me guys.

Xx