looking for the rainbow

People say that to get the rainbow you of course have to put up with the rain.  So I’m trying to find the rainbow in the fact that life has basically decided to take buckets of water and pour them over my head. Hehe.

B and I have been trying to work things out.  I’ve found that a lot of his doubt is just from the distance and trying to reconcile it with his normal desire to touch and cuddle and be there with someone he’s dating.  Which is something I wish I could do too but I’m also used to dealing with not being able to so I guess to me it’s not as big a deal.  But we’ve seen each other 3 times this past week.  I went down Monday night, Tuesday night, and then again last night.  And he’s coming to see me at Lexi’s on Tuesday night. 

Speaking of Lexi…  I can’t believe I’ll be moving tomorrow…Again, for the second time this month!  Good grief.    Ah well.  Do what you gotta do.  Most of my stuff is packed.  I’ve got my make-up and overnight bag left and my laptop and the little things like that.  I have my doctor’s appointment with my lady-doctor in the morning.  Then I have to finish packing up my finish. LOL.  Yeah Mr. Pinky is the last thing I’ll be packing.  Don’t know yet how I’ll pack him.  Maybe I’ll just put a plastic baggy over the top of his bowl with a rubberband.  But he can’t be in the front seat with me because he’ll boil.  It’s an hour and a half drive and it’ll be sunny the whole time.  >_>  No boiling my fishy, that’s bad.  I have to unplug and turn off everything too.  Not taking my printer but I am taking my harddrive.  Not taking my alarm clock, figure my phone will be enough.  *sigh*  Not taking a lot of my stuff actually.  Going to throw a bunch of stuff in a box and put it away in my closet. LOL

I’m excited to be getting away from my family.  I know it sounds like I don’t love them but I do.  I just can’t stand having people all in my space 24/7.  And my family doesn’t understand the concept of privacy…at ALL!  Gah!  Nothing worse than trying to get dressed and your mom walking and leaving your bedroom door WIDE OPEN!!!  Seriously.  OMG.

I’m much perkier than I’ve been so far this month.  I guess a lot of it is that I’ve started putting more faith in my life and believing that somehow it will work out.  Yes I may be hurting now and I may be hurting more before it’s all done.  But no one ever said life would be easy.  It will be worth it though.  ^_^

*luv ya bunches*