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In the wake of Mary’s death I know I’ve turned into a really snarky person.  I’ve been trying not to take it out on anybody but I’m sure it’s come out.  I know poor M is probably confused as all heck right now because it came out on him some and he did deserve it some but he really didn’t deserve it as bad as he got.

M started feeling sick last Tuesday night and got much worse by the next day.  He is still sick although he is better than he was last week.  When I went home to work I also went home to try and see him, even if just for an hour.  I didn’t see him once, I didn’t even really talk to him except over text and we all know how much I despise text messaging.  So I let into him a little bit last night because I was frustrated and really feeling like he was putting me off more than he needed to.  At one point our conversation (via text of course) was "let me know the next time you’re up visiting".  I responded very cranky, "i don’t come up to visit i come up to work and that won’t be for another month or so" to which he responded "well let me know and i’ll be better by then".  *BUZZER*  Wrong answer.  The correct response would have been along the lines of "sorry, how about i come down and visit you at school then?"  Seems that’s the answer I was getting before I left for school.  Funny how the answer always changes once I’ve left.  You see, sometimes I really wish I was wrong about people.

I also ran into Geo Saturday night.  Geo is a guy I met New Year’s last year (2006-2007).  At the time he was dating a friend of a friend and so nothing happened but even then I had a bit of a thing for him.  Ironically he is now pretty close friends with several of my guy friends at home.  He came out Saturday night and I was nine kinds of digging on him.  I was dancing on him, flirting with him, talking to him.  And once again, men are the masters of the mixed signal.

At one point we went outside because my stomach was getting kind of upset at me so I thought I’d get some fresh air.  Well I didn’t want to be alone outside in downtown at midnight so I asked Geo to come down and walk with me.  He did and we sat and talked and it was pretty nice.  Well when we went to come back inside he grabbed my hand and held it as we walked.  At one point he even spun me.  We continued to flirt all night.  He would wrap his arm around me and kiss the top of my head and stuff and I didn’t see him doing that to any of the other girls there that he knew so I really felt like maybe he was into me too so I gave him my number.  Of course I haven’t heard anything from him.  How typical.  I put myself out there and get a big fat nothing! 

So all around I have had a shitty weekend.  People died, I was sick, I had but didn’t have guys I was with and I worked every day of it, even the one that I was sick to my stomach.  Ugh.  When it rains it pours I swear to god.